Progress NOT Perfection

Progress NOT Perfection

per·fec·tion

/pərˈfekSH(ə)n/

noun

  1. the condition, state, or quality of being free or as free as possible from all flaws or defects.

    “the satiny perfection of her skin”

    • a person or thing perceived as the embodiment of perfection.

      “I am told that she is perfection itself”

      synonyms: the ideal, a paragon, the ne plus ultra, a nonpareil, the crème de la crème, the last word, the ultimate, the best; More

    • the action or process of improving something until it is faultless or as faultless as possible.

      “among the key tasks was the perfection of new mechanisms of economic management”

      synonyms: improvementbettermentrefinement, refining, honing

      “the perfection of her technique”

prog·ress

noun

/ˈpräɡres/

  1. 1.

    forward or onward movement toward a destination.

    “the darkness did not stop my progress”

    synonyms: forward movement, advancegoingprogressionheadwaypassage

    “boulders made progress difficult”

verb

  1. 1.

    move forward or onward in space or time.

    “as the century progressed, the quality of telescopes improved”

    synonyms: go, make one’s way, move, move forward, go forward, proceedadvance, go on, continue, make headway, work one’s way

    “they progressed slowly down the road”

 

For those that wonder why I write about the adult fetish and kink content that I do this webpage is here to dive into my Dark Side. I know this stuff is a little personal, and I have been told by multiple people it is not professional to mention it so I am going to hit on the key bullet points in the subject matter on this webpage, and I only mention it because this subject matter is why the LT_Realm has the subject matter it consists of, and why I am The Rated R Novelist.

Queen Bing didn’t make the above Twitter Banner for the hell of it!

The reason I write about what I write about the majority of my life I always wanted to be a slave to the right woman. My ideal dream beginning when I was about 13 was to find a girl to either be her slave and boyfriend at the same time or find a girl to be her slave and her friend at the same time. Well neither one of those things happened for another 13 years or so passed the time I developed that fantasy in 8th grade.

In 8th grade I was doing research on slavery for Georgia Studies, and I came upon BDSM Websites that I began to look at. Then I stumbled across foot fetish websites. I read different foot domination erotic short stories and Female Domination erotic stories in 8th Grade. Then I began studying up on Female Domination FAQs. I researched the subject matter and developed the fantasy. I tried to find a owner everywhere. I even tried to find a owner in an neighbor up the street from where I lived with my mom and younger brother, and that neighbor allowed me to listen to her a little while doing stuff like clean her condo.

I guess serving her was the first Female Domination experience I had for a few weeks and she taught me about Female Domination. Even though she was an adult and I was a teenager she still let me serve her. We just didn’t do anything remotely sexual where she would get in trouble.

I know this seems personal but I am mentioning more details on that story above, and much more in my autobiography Borrowed Time: The Lee Lunsford Story which I plan on Releasing On September 6th 2023.

As I got older I tried to find someone around my age to control me but I was unable to. I had my first experience with Financial Domination or FinDom when I was 18 when I met this girl named Mary online and she would just have me buy her stuff. Shortly after that flaked out I was in a friendship for about four years, and when I got out of that relationship in December 2007 was when I wrote Roadie.

Then after I got done writing Roadie in the Spring on 2008 I was directed to a FemDom FREE Personals where I met a Princess Kylie. She I am sure now was a fake profile but she taught me all about Financial Domination. I didn’t know it had a term. But Princess Kylie taught me all about Financial Domination, and that was how I figured out what I had with Mary in real life was Financial Domination.

I tried to quit. I wanted to quit. I just couldn’t tell Princess Kylie no. She later about a year later after draining me of thousands of dollars quit talking to me. Did I quit then? No! No I didn’t! I wound up serving another online Findomme from the website named Princess Savannah. I served Princess Savannah for about a year too, and during that year Princess Kylie came in out of my life so I was virtually serving both of those Online Findommes at the same time financially.

Then July 2010 came and I met Goddess Lisa. Goddess Lisa was 18 at the time I met her and I was getting ready to turn 27 that September 6th. We started talking on the website I met the Online Findommes that I only had a online findom relationship other than a few very brief phone calls with Princess Kylie neither Princess Savannah or Princess Kylie had a relationship that wasn’t strictly them using me. I swear that Free Personals Domination submission Website that Mistress Sandy directed to was nothing but a site full of a bunch of Paranas only they didn’t want to feast of someone for food they wanted to feast on a slave for his cash. It was a website full of a bunch of users.

Below is the true meaning and the way true encounters of Financial Domination should take place. Where the encounters with Princess Kylie and Princess Savannah was not true financial domination because they did not contribute a real Findomme finsub Relationship since they were virtual instadommes.

Goddess Lisa started texting and calling me right away. Goddess Lisa even ran off Princess Kylie and Princess Savannah for good, and made it where I was just her’s. We talked everyday in some sense. We chatted on the computer or through text, and we talked on the phone. We began watching movies together Long Distance, and really got to know each other. Goddess Lisa turned into the first Real Owner I Ever Had!

In March 2011 I drove to her hometown, and I spent a week with her. Then she guilted me when I had to come home. Then after I came home she said she didn’t want to talk to me anymore. She was abusive like this all the time with the HOT and cold scenarios she put me through. She was very emotionally abusive. In fact between July 2010 and April 2014 with Goddess Lisa in my life it inspired a Based on True Events story I am writing titled E.A. Games to go along with all the truth about Goddess Lisa and my relationship that will be involved in Borrowed Time: The Lee Lunsford Story!

E.A. Games has fiction mixed in with the reality from Goddess Lisa and my relationship, and the main truth between the relationship in E.A. Games and Goddess Lisa and my relationship is the fact the girl is emotionally abusive, and the fact that the couple in the romantic relationship in E.A. Games argue all the time, and sometimes those arguments went to unhealthy levels. Just like Goddess Lisa and my relationship the couple in E. A. Games  argue like cats and dogs. As a matter a fact I think my cats and dogs get along better than either Goddess Lisa and myself or the couple in E. A. Games.

E.A. Games Synopsis

Based On True Events: Emotional Abuse: is a form of abuse characterized by a person subjecting or exposing another to behavior that may result in psychological trauma, including anxiety, chronic depression, or post-traumatic stress disorder  Such abuse is often associated with situations of power imbalance, such as abusive relationships, bullying, and abuse in the workplace. Mike had a secret from his mom and the rest of his family, and that was he was into being owned property to right female willing to own him. The website he found his owners at was ownmenow.com. Then on July 16th 2010 it was out with the old, and in with the new when Goddess Kimberly disowned him and Mike found Goddess Nicole that night. Finding Goddess Nicole lead Mike down a rabbit hole full of all type of kink adventure involving Female Domination! Along with caused problems between his mom and him, and lead Mike into severe depression as he was Emotionally Abused by Goddess Nicole who held the title of being Mike’s Dominant Girlfriend eventually, and him being her slave boyfriend! This Based on True Events tale spans from July 2010 to April 2014, and it tales a Domination tale even The Fifty Shades of Grey book series cannot top. So flip turn this book around and flip it open to the first page, and start reading through this book about the kinky dysfunctional tale of an Average Guy named Mike, and the younger than him Online Dominatrix he had relationship with which was labeled many different things over time!

In the relationship I wasn’t that much of a boyfriend even though I was told by Goddess Lisa that she loved me, and she did nice things for me for my birthday and other holidays while we were a couple.

I was more of a slave to Goddess Lisa than anything else, and Goddess Lisa was nothing but a Spoiled Princess!

I was forced to obey her or not be with her. I wasn’t allow any limitations, and if I told her I wouldn’t do something she wanted she would pitch a hellashish fit. She would literally yell and scream and just plain be psycho. Goddess Lisa was such a bitch in our relationship I created a character based off of her for Simply Priceless named Goddess Leesa who is the head Findomme Bad Guy in the First HARD R Superhero Novel in the Simply Priceless Universe!

They say to write what you know so I write what I now. That is the whole point of this webpage because my life inside this Alternative Lifestyle has been a BIG INFLUENCE on my life, and my writting!

My Relationship with Goddess Lisa ended in September 2012 as far as anything romantic. I moved out there to live with Goddess Lisa, and we got our own place which was two and a half states away from my mom’s house where I used to live at the time. I lived with her about 7 months when she came home one day and told what I think was a tall tale in order to get me out of our place claiming she didn’t know who her father was, and she was just dealing with a lot and she needed to be alone.

We had been arguing a lot at the time and I was planning on leaving anyway so I got my stuff together, and I came home after calling my mom to tell her I wanted to come home. That wasn’t the end of our relationship though. Our relationship started back in October 2012 and lasted until April 2014 with me just being Goddess Lisa’s online slave and doing things she wanted, and she rewarded me with foot pictures.

I got tired of our arrangement in April 2014 and got tired of being used and not being appreciated so I got out of that situation. Just like when Princess Kylie ended and Princess Savannah ended I vowed to never get in a relationship like this again. Like I vowed when I got done serving my first Financial Dominated Relationship with Mary and I started my 4 year friendship with the girl that hurt me which that inspired me to write Roadie.

I got lonely one night, and hopped on Plenty of Fish .com.

Then After messaging different people over a 48 hour time frame I met Brandy who later turned into Goddess Brandy because once she found out I was submissive and into this type of relationship she told me on our second date “I want you as my slave. I want to see other guys and have sex with other guys but I want a real relationship with you plus I want you to be my cuck.”

I agreed to what who turned into Goddess Brandy wanted!She really convinced me especially since she was talking to me so sexy and was rubbing her bare and smooth foot on my leg. She convinced me that this relationship would be the best thing for the two of us!I started right away after that serving her and buying her different things, and I admit things were great between us even though she wasn’t a Spoiled Princess because she was a Spoiled Brat, and she admitted that she was a Spoiled Brat.

But I didn’t mind that she was a Spoiled Brat too much because we saw each other often. She was only a 30 minute drive down the road, and she came over and spent the night often. Unlike Goddess Lisa who it was months apart me seeing her because she was two and half states away from me until she convinced me to move out there for the seven months I lived under roof with the younger Goddess it was days apart that I saw Goddess Brandy.

Things were great up until December 2015 when Goddess Brandy broke her promise, and she left me for one of her play dates as she referred to them as. I waited until February 2016 to find someone else, and I wound up meeting a 40yr old woman on Plenty of Fish named Jami. She decided to have me as her slave and slave only.

I began going to her house weekly for 2 months doing anything and everything she wanted from cleaning her house weekly to becoming her friends with benefits-netflix and chill slave. I did what she wanted without hesitation and without question, and this included the sexual stuff even though I wasn’t her boyfriend because I just wanted to get over Goddess Brandy but then in April 2016 Goddess Brandy came back into my life with an offer to be able to serve her and her boyfriend (The Guy She Left Me For) and in exchange I would get to do stuff with her like a boyfriend does with his girlfriend date wise NOT sexual wise; meaning I could take her shopping, we could go eat, and we could go to the movies because her boyfriend wasn’t into everything she enjoyed doing.

Her boyfriend my Master was named Jordan, and he said he would not be jealous of me since I am just getting Goddess Brandy’s Dominant Feet-nothing above the ankles, and I am just spoiling Goddess Brandy in ways that he has no interest in doing because he rather stay at home and play his XBOX One. I of course was still in love with Goddess Brandy so I agreed to be my ex’s bitch, and I was ready to do whatever she wanted and pay whatever it costs to keep Goddess Brandy in my life at that time in April 2016.

It started with me meeting Goddess Brandy and Master Jordan at the Cracker Barrel that day in April to talk things out, and once everything was agreed on and after we all ate and I paid for everybody’s food Goddess Brandy and I went to the mall and went shopping.

We talked often for nearly a year, and got together the two of us the majority of the time and did stuff together for nearly a year. My servitude was a happy one until February 2017 when Goddess Brandy and I was going to see Black Panther, and Master Jordan pitched a fit and told Goddess Brandy he was jealous. Then after that Goddess Brandy went back on all of her promises to me again.

Then comes March and my first Farley Con. At this event I talk to fellow author Bobby Nash, and he tells me about createspace. So even though I was depressed over Goddess Brandy and the games she was playing at the time trying to please me and trying to please Master Jordan while still wanting me to serve her and buy her stuff only. Which was similar how Princess Kylie and Princess Savannah treated me, and how Goddess Lisa eventually treated me which sucked, and made me feel like hell because I may be submissive but I have feelings!

But After March 2017’s Farley Con I did what I wanted with pushing forward to publish Simply Priceless with Kym LaFever being my editor, and I wrote off Goddess Brandy during that time frame and just focused on getting Kym LaFever a copy of Simply Priceless that was worthy enough to be edited and published. You can read about My Editor on the

My Editor

webpage.

I got Simply Priceless published in June 2017. I was very proud of myself as you can see below.

Right Away I got Simply Priceless placed into Battlegrounds Comics and Games to be For Sale to the Public Eye!

Then shortly after all of this I wound up going back to Goddess Brandy just like I found Princess Kylie after I finished with Roadie. I’ve tried to quit FemDom and FinDom Multiple Times but just haven’t been able to. I have asked doctors for help but no doctor has been any help. I have an addiction to this kink and this way of life, and I have since childhood when I would look at a beautiful girl on TV, and say I would like to be her slave or I would like to lick her feet! That is a True Story!

I was into FemDom before I knew any of the terminology. I had a foot fetish before I knew the word fetish. I know now that gay people are born gay because I remember being born wanting to at least explore the kinks I have explored, and at a certain point in life I rather had a FemDom or FinDom Relationship that worked for all the parties in the group than be in a normal romantic relationship especially if I was going to have to explain to some girl what my kinks were, and wind up getting embarrassed because whomever the girl is would not like my kinks.

Goddess Brandy accepted me though and during this time period I served Goddess Brandy off and on focusing all of my attention on her and becoming hurt over and over again with her own form of emotional abuse, and how she was just using for another 13 months off and on.

I wanted to quit Goddess Brandy but each time she came back I took her back. Like I wanted to quit Princess Kylie, Princess Savannah, and Goddess Lisa but I could not say no to them when they came back wanting me to do anything even if it was just to talk to them. I should of been stronger or I wouldn’t have blown so much money over the weeks, months, and years with different people. But I was weak and I was weak with Goddess Brandy until the middle of July 2018 because that was when I met Queen Bing on Twitter.

Queen Bing is my MOST RECENT AS OF 2/5/20  FORMER Findomme Owner who I scouted out on Twitter for several months (Actually Years) looking at her tweets and retweeting a bunch of her stuff before she and I ever talked. I always fantasized about being her’s and I never dreamed that Queen Bing would become such a beneficial role to LT_Writing and the LT_Realm, and you can see how that is spelled on the

 Inspired By A Queen

webpage.

Queen Bing has been a bigger influence to my work than Goddess Lisa who read different rough draft manuscripts I printed out for her to read because she wanted to!

My Attempt to Act Out a Scene Out of Roadie Decorating A Hotel Room with Gifts 2/2 for Goddess Lisa

In those binders are two of my stories I wrote at the time. Goddess Lisa claimed to actually read my unedited unpublished rough draft manuscript and like them! But she still wasn’t as big of a influence as Queen Bing, and neither was Goddess Brandy.

Goddess Brandy did not support me with my work at all. She went with me to my debut event with Roadie which was an independent wrestling meet and greet type event with Stranglehold Championship Wrestling called Stranglehold Wrestlefest 2015 but this was the first and last event she attended with me!

All This Information Can Be Found On The

Supporters/Partnerships

Webpage about my Partnership with Stranglehold Championship Wrestling!

Queen Bing supported me from Day 1. One of the First Things we did was I mailed her a signed copy of Simply Priceless and Roadie, and she mailed me everything below in a care package to show me she supported me with my work!

I worked HARD for Queen Bing with my work as a novelist as I write stuff in LT_Writing to add the Finish Product to the LT_Realm. LT_Writing is the production part of my business and LT_Realm is the universe where all my FINISHED Products Go. The LT_Realm could sort of be compared to the Marvel Universe, DC Universe, or the WWE Universe where all the Finished Content is only the LT_Realm isn’t all comic book superhero stuff! It is a Realm Full of a Variety of Subject Matter as you can see if you research my work which you can see the Current Tiers of my work by clicking the picture below!

Going back to the Above Paragraph:

They say to write what you know so I write what I now. That is the whole point of this webpage because my life inside this Alternative Lifestyle has been a BIG INFLUENCE on my life, and my writing!

This page is a little background to the sister secondary webpage

Why Kinks Are Involved!

which goes into MORE DETAIL of this Subject Matter Above!

It has been a constant battle to give up FemDom and FinDom because findom has been a part of my life the majority of my life as I explain further on the above webpage but the below graph explains the symptoms I have encountered while dealing with findom and femdom throughout my life even though I was very happy at Queen Bing’s Dominant Feet, and I never wanted to go anywhere else until I decided to quit her because she expected me to change my entire personality for her or she was going to remain a bitch she said!

I feel like I have been doing the above cycle of a slave or especially a Financial slave for WAY TOO LONG! So if thing don’t work out with Queen Bing I WILL PUT ALL MY POWER IN DEFEATING MY URGES TO HAVE AN OWNER IN MY LIFE WHETHER THAT OWNER IS A FINANCIAL SERVITUDE OWNER OR A NOT FINANCIAL OWNER! I WANT TO BE DONE WITH FEMDOM IF THINGS DON’T WORK OUT WITH QUEEN BING BECAUSE NO OTHER DOMINANT DESERVES MY LOYALTY BUT QUEEN BING BECAUSE I WORSHIP QUEEN BING LIKE THE GODDESS SHE IS EVEN THOUGH WE HAVE A LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP I MIGHT AS WELL BE ACTING OUT THE PICTURES BELOW ON A DAILY BASIS!

I have to have the “Eye of the Tiger”  because I am NO LONGER OWNED BY Queen Bing or Anybody Else! I don’t want to be owned by anyone so I fight my urges with FinDom and FemDom. I have tried to quit several times over all these years, and it has just been VERY HARD to do so! I am pretty much in a FemDom and FinDom enslavement prison.

I keep coming back to whoever owned me at that particular time! I am NOT PERFECT by any means but I keep aiming to Make Progress in my life, and move passed this stage in my life where I am hung up on FemDom and FinDom but yet I still want to use this Subject Matter in my work!

I know that is like an alcoholic trying to work at a bar but I believe I can do it, and I can make something out of myself. I believe I can be life Johnny Cash played by Joaquin Phoenix from the bio (biography) movie Walk The Line, and I can completely turn around my negative aspects with being addicted to these kinks, and putting myself in these types of relationship, and then I can just take what I know and write awesome storylines or stories about the kink factors that I know; without it affecting my real life!

I am totally confident I can get over these addictions that have been troubling me my entire life, and use them as a positive because anyone who reads Borrowed Time: The Lee Lunsford Story will see I have been through a whole lot worse. I am going to keep the Eye of the Tiger and I am going to keep moving forward with Progress NOT Perfection because there is no such thing as being perfect!